I do things in waves - I think it's natural. Besides, you have to live your life. You can't spend every waking moment prepping - it may never happen afterall. ....... and spending time with your family, work, friends, and getting on with real life - gives us the motivation to prepare.
For me the reason why I prepare is so I can be of use, it's so I can give the people I love and care about a fighting chance.
I'm not in it for myself. I want to know that while it's just dawning on my other half that something bad happened - I can say, it's OK, we got food, I can still make dinner. So that he can go on protecting me - I mean the least i can do is make sure he's got something to eat and batteries in his torch while he goes out to investigate what 'that noise was'.....not literally but you know what I'm getting at
Someone waves a fist in my face, well he's going to jump in front to take the punch. If neighbours turn up demanding food he's going to be having that conversation not me - he's bigger and more self assured than me.
So I know if SHTF that's the role he'll take. I want to know I'm not going to be a total drain as I basically cry that I'm scared. My other half doesn't give two hoots about prepping. He's a 'I will deal with it if it happens' type of guy... Tonight I told him I put a little whistle on his keyring - you know in case he gets trapped under rubble - he said "excellent now with a whistle and a torch I will be able to have myself a rave while trapped" and then he did a stupid rave dance and I laughed and he laughed and he went back to the football but then an hour later for no reason out the blue he just said 'love you'.
if something does happen he'll remember the torch and the whistle and it could save his life. He knows that but I try not to ram prepping down his throat or take over our free time.
I hope this is all making sense....
I want to know that if I can get back home to my family up north, I can do it safely and hopefully bring a load of supplies with me. I don't want to turn up and be an extra mouth to find food for.
I want to be part of the solution not part of the problem.
But if I spent all my free time and money on prepping at the sake of my relationships then what's the point?
And that's why waves are totally normal and healthy.
I'm stock piling a box. I buy foods that genuinely I probably wouldn't really eat - don't get me wrong I'd eat it if I was hungry but I never sit at home and think - ohhhhh I have some 33p kidney beans I might crack them open for tea tonight or shall I cook that curry in a can?
If I see batteries on offer I get them, if there's a deal on 3 for 2 on an interesting looking tin of something I get it.
Prepping isn't something fancy - its just making sure you have 24 toilet rolls rather than 9 in the house. At its core all prepping is, is making sure you're not down to your last sheet of loo roll when you really need a poo.
Don't be too hard on yourself.